Daisy Roo & Two

Over the hills and far away…

Over the hills and far away…

Over the hills and far away…

I think we all have this idea in our heads, when we’re young.

Some of us well past young.

One day, when I’m a grown up…

We think we’ll know what we want to do. Hell, we think we’ll be doing it!

We think we’ll have it all together. Paying our bills on time, raising our children right, living in the right house in the right street in the right town.

Then there’s people like me. Who stopped thinking I’d get it all together when I was about 16 and realised that I was a hot mess and probably would be for life but every now and then there’s a glimmer of hope for me and I wonder:

Maybe people don’t get their shit together in their 30s. Maybe it really doesn’t happen until your 40s for some people. And maybe I am those people…

A few weeks ago a school mum actually said to me:

“You know you look like super mum right now, right? You’ve got it alllll together”

She even waved her arms across the table my not-so-feral-that-day children were sitting at.

And then we both laughed and laughed and laughed because NO ONE has their shit alllll together with wavy arms. Right?

I guess, if you do have it allllll together, I probably don’t want to hear from you on that because that will upset my entire equilibrium.

And I don’t mean organised. PLENTY of people are organised. Admittedly there are school children more organised than I am. Lots of them.

I mean having it all together. The whole hog. All your pieces in a row, just how you planned them.

Because I have this feeling, that all those people who really did get all their ducks lined up? They have new ducks now. Quacking around and over the hills and far away and not coming back when they’re told to.

I remember being about 7 and looking out my window and thinking to myself:

I wonder what I’ll beย like when I’m 16 and all grown up. I wonder if I’ll have long hair…

Holy dooley, 7 year old Daisy! I wish someone had told me then:

Darling, you’re a hot mess now. You’ll be a hot mess when you’re 16 and don’t even talk to me about the hot mess you’ll be at 32. And yes, you will have long hair. How about brushing it.

I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up.

It matters less and less to me, ย really.

I know who I want to be though.

I want to be kind. I want to be brave. I want to be generous. I want to conquer my fears. I want to raise my children to be all these things, too.

And nowhere in that job description of being me, does it say I can’t be a hot mess as well.

What do you want to be when you grow up? I still want long hair.

7 thoughts on “Over the hills and far away…

  1. Mrs P

    I want long hair too! I asked my hairdresser about hair extensions this week because I’m impatient.
    I don’t really know what I want to be when I grow up, but I know I want my fellow amazing, hot mess friends around me because they help me celebrate the moments that I have it all together, and laugh with me about the rest.

  2. Christy

    I still have no idea what I want I want to be when I grow up either… 42 isn’t the magic age you find out either…

    And I would love long hair but I never will, but just to rub it in my face my daughter has the hair, the hair to die for, the hair that people pay hundreds of dollars for, and if I colour my hair she tells me it’s not as good as hers… at least I have instilled self confidence in her… right?

    1. Daisy

      Self confidence will never be her problem ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

      Also, who wants to grow up anyway? Let’s forget being something when we grow up and start wearing Peter Pan outfits and crowing when life gets too hard!! Who’s in!?
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  3. Grace

    Very soon I’ll officially be in my mid 40’s and I am still a hot mess.
    The thing is, in my 30’s and before I had kids I thought I had it allllllltogether – job, house, friends, blah blah blah.
    But you realise it’s just surface stuff and then I got to know myself a LOT better and yeah, well…you know the rest.
    Let’s be hot messes together xxx
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  4. Denyse

    How much do I love your writing! And YOU! I used to think I had it all together.. One month in my life many moons ago. I may even be making that up! I’m still waiting to both grow up & get my act together! I’m 66! Imperfect is my middle name! D xx
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